he's leaving
before graduation
i'll be alone all summer, without anyone here at home.
leaving a week before our two year.
we wont talk for a little over 2 months, at all. and the next time i'll see him?
prob. christmas.
for the next 6 years.
now the fuck do i deal with shit like that?

i was a mess for days when i found out i'd lose him in april.
a mess
i cried probably every period of class and then some.
over reacting? maybe.
but he saved me, he picked me up when i didnt think i'd make it.
i would be in such a bad spot right now if it wasnt for him.
and my graduation tears me up the most,i wont even be talking to him then.
he was there when it started, and kept me there. it's only right for him to be there when it ends, and he won't be.

so yeah, maybe i'm overeating. but when you fork over your heart like i have, and then you won't see the other half of you for a long time, it's hard. he's going away. i'm not me without him, he makes me a better person. can i face the type of person i am when he's gone?


god i fucking miss you already kid. <3

on repeat; "tshirt by shontelle"